Update: I'm crazy!

[aphrodite_mine]

I'm back into mood swing-mode, which is nice when it's nice and bad when it's bad. After awesome!weekend (TM) I've had three days of the blahs culminating last night when I got home from therapy, promptly got drunk and attempted to self-sabotage my relationship. WTF, self. Thankfully, majesdane  is kind of a saint and we talked and are cool, and guys*. Don't let me post-therapy drink! This is a BAD LIFE CHOICE. So yeah, despite it being all wintery out now, I'm feeling better today, and hopefully will stay that way for a bit.

But! On to GOOD LIFE CHOICE(s): I am finally on season 3 of The Good Wife and OH MY GOD ALL OF THE FEELINGS. I ship everyone/everyone which I, as a rule, generally don't do. And I'm going to watch Fringe LIVE on Friday! ALL. OF. THE. FEELINGS. (Oh yeah, and Parks is back tonight and oh god don't even try to talk to me when I get home from work because I am probably the only person on the planet who sobs for like an hour after watching a comedy.) I also finally stood up for anxiety-ridden self and told the derby board that I needed to take a step back from my web duties because they were stressing me the fuck out... so, my wife promptly found a sponsor to help me with the complicated stressy stuff! EEE!

I decided to nix my Fringe-fic for fivetimesbb  as it was stressing me out. So, now focusing on some fun Galentine's day fic, a potentially epic The Inside crossover for fivetimesbb , THE HAPPIEST AND GAYEST STORY EVER for recastbigbang (@LJ) (Imagine Me & You as told in Parks & Rec universe) and trying to figure out what to write for queer_bigbang  -- do I want to write another Ann Perkins-is-a-giant-gaymo big bang? Is there another queer-tastic character I love as much as Ann Perkins? I DON'T KNOW. GIVE ME THOUGHTS.

*Can I just take a moment here to brag on MY FREAKING AMAZING FRIENDS? I can't even really say more than *MASSIVE FLAIL* but, really. AMAZING.

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[goodbyebird]

ANN PERKINS.

Hah TGW will make you do that, won't it? Ridiculous, really. (except for me, Peter isn't welcome in the clubhouse *g*)

And go you for standing up for yourself <3 I've learned the hard way that setting boundaries and saying 'no' when you need to is a very important factor.

[aphrodite_mine]

\o/ ANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNisalesbian.

And yeah, I feel weird about Peter. I'm actually shocked that I don't just plain hate him, but I don't. I don't necessarily want to see him getting his grove on, but he actually does seem to (at least at this point in the season, I've just started 3) regret what he did and feel torn between his love for Alicia and wanting to get back at her for making him hurt... which is a very HUMAN emotion and one I can relate to. (And, okay, I've definitely cheated in the past, so I can relate to THAT aspect as well.)

One of the biggest things I'm working on in therapy is boundaries. That, and understanding emotions (at least in myself) which makes me feel like some kind of developmental failure, but then I think that a lot of people deal with the same thing... idk.

[gloss]

do I want to write another Ann Perkins-is-a-giant-gaymo big bang? Is there another queer-tastic character I love as much as Ann Perkins? I DON'T KNOW. GIVE ME THOUGHTS.
1. YES YOU DO OF COURSE YOU DO. Unless you don't.
2. NO THERE IS NOT WHICH IS WHY YOU ARE AWESOME.

Basically Ann is the best and...that's about all I've got. ♥

[aphrodite_mine]

My only worry is that I will FAIL and will therefore have FAILED ANN PERKINS.

<3

[gloss]

You can't fail Ann Perkins! THAT IS THE BEAUTY OF THE PERKINS. It takes, like, the level of a Chris Traeger to fluster her. Even if you had to default, she'd probably just hug you hard and rub your back and eat with you until you felt better.

[aphrodite_mine]

OH GOD SHE WOULD. And that is why Ann Perkins is perfect. ;______;

[aphrodite_mine]

So... I'm probably going to write the Ann & Leslie have been dating (almost) all along head canon, featuring awesome poly trust and dating, and sex, maybe I CAN WRITE SEX, I TOTALLY CAN.

[gloss]

!!! This is going to amazing!

You can totally write sex, if you need to. <3

[aphrodite_mine]

It's possible I will spam you with ~thoughts and feelings. I hope this is okay!

[gloss]

Spam away! Please!

:DDDDDD

[aphrodite_mine]

Is the best way to contact you via reply? Cause I might get obsessive in a few weeks.

[gloss]

Replies are good, so is PM or email (glossings / gmail).

I look forward to your obsessiveness!

[aphrodite_mine]

Well, flailings and the fact that I want to be your friend! /awkward

I found the parksandreckink LJ and assumed my life was basically over for productivity, but shock of all shocks, that place is a chasm of heterosexuality and zero (though I didn't look too hard) femslash prompts have been filled. BAH. (Someone DID request Ann/Lucy, which is awesome.) Annnnnnyway. I invited you to gmail chat, but feel free to totally not accept.

[gloss]

Bbbbbut I want to be your friend!

I had to go work this afternoon, sorry about that - and usually I am bad at spontaneous chats (anxiety), but I would love to have a chance to talk! Would you be available some afternoon next week? :D?

[aphrodite_mine]

I'm always on gmail during the day, and afternoons tend to be slower than mornings (Central Time). So, absolutely! I'll let you message me, and will almost guarantee that I'll be there, bored, and ready to chat.

[st_aurafina]

potentially epic The Inside crossover

YES! *dances around*

[aphrodite_mine]

So far I'm crossing over with Alias (comic), Dexter season 5, and Birds of Prey.

[st_aurafina]

OMG! omg omgomg! I don't even know Dexter, but if Rebecca and Jessica Jones are even going to be in the same room, I may die!

[aphrodite_mine]

That's the plan. (Minus the dying.)

[prunesquallormd]

Despite the mood swings, things seem to be fairly positive. I'm glad <3

I'm waiting on seasons 1 and 2 of Parks and Recreation to come over from the states, cos it's not on DVD over here. I've heard so many good things about it - not just from you, either - and I'm very much looking forward to it :)

[aphrodite_mine]

Parks is the the the the best.