aphrodite_mine: barrettes in reddish hair read 'feminist killjoy' (daisy)
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--> [community profile] intoabar: Pick a character who walks into a bar, get assigned a random character from a fandom of your listing who they meet. Write a fic about it. Gen, het, fem... whatever. Signups are open. (Also on DW)

--> [profile] femslash_planet: I'm on team sweeps. Having a stupid amount of fun so far and all I've done is plan a project and do a wordsearch.


Playing as Bianca from Degrassi. Love me some conflicted feelings, and hello powerplay. (Yes, I ship her with Adam, and yes, I'd probably ship her with anyone, given the screen time. But not Alli. Bleh.)



Slog: .2

Aug. 6th, 2010 03:32 pm
aphrodite_mine: barrettes in reddish hair read 'feminist killjoy' (jenny sees the future)
Pretty much everything in my life right now is a seizure trigger.

- diet (fast food, dairy, wheat)
- alcohol (not often, but often enough)
- illness (upper respiratory infection)
- medicine (I did miss one day recently, so that isn't helping)
- light/sound (I stare at three computer monitors all day, one of which is made of 16 tiny screens, listen to a repeating soundtrack of elevator music, am alerted to sounds like alarms on doors and telephones ringing)
- the biggie, stress

A lot of these can be changed. Alcohol is not an important part of my life; neither is fast food. However, a lot of people have made improvements by cutting out dairy and wheat, which are two pretty big staples in my diet (since I don't eat much in the way of fruits and veggies, I have to eat SOMETHING). This would need to be evaluated. I will get healthy eventually, and through dosing or a doctor change, I will get back on full medication.

Lights and sounds are every day issues that my body either needs to accommodate or be medicated to handle.  If this job is truly too... "high risk" for me at this time, then [here comes the OCD cycle thinking] I need to look into disability. Honestly, with an English major and this economic climate, every job available to me involves a computer screen.

As for stress, a lot of this involves finding long-term solutions. At this point in the league, we are building the entire future, not just this month. While I'm creating the website, I will be preventing myself from doing the same work a month from now. So this immense stress now won't be on me later.. and while that doesn't help now, it will be beneficial then. This will also help in future bouts, future skater relations.. all of which can potentially be more hands-off. Not awesome now, awesome later.

Another issue that has come to mind today, while seizing up more than once an hour, is whether this will interfere with roller derby. Of course I need to report what is happening to the training committee, but unless things get worse, this situation can only harm myself. I freeze on the track, am dazed for a moment... perhaps my team misses a point or a crucial block. Isn't that better than missing a player? After all, I have already played a scrimmage while phasing in and out, and the worst that happened was a big fall (and I'm sure that was more on account of inexperience than any malfunction). In any case, I need to be aware of my body's ability and stop denying to myself that this is happening.

If it means I have to skip work and get a ride to St Louis, I may have to keep that appointment. I hate to think that is the option.
aphrodite_mine: barrettes in reddish hair read 'feminist killjoy' (don't leave me)
I've been having complex partial seizures for around a month now, and mostly didn't realize it, but lately I've been ignoring them or filing them in my brain as "weird space-out moments" when I, experienced seize-ee as I am, should have recognized first go around what these were, despite their shortness and frequency.

The first time I remember noticing was during practice scrimmage with SIRG. I couldn't "get my head in the game" and I kept thinking about that awful High School Musical song. The lights were strange.

Then, lately, while driving, I've had full body "hiccups" where I phase out and in, and within minutes, repeat the process. Now, the action has increased (but not in danger, I suppose) to phasing while sitting at work. Three times (I counted) from arrival at 8am until this writing at 10:30.

Within this period, I missed my medication one day, but if the SIRG scrimmage date is the same seizure, than this is not the cause. Also, I do not recall any incidents occurring on or directly after that day.  They feel almost like I am falling asleep and then being jerked awake--there is an electric current that zooms through my body and I come out of the phase. I suppose these blinks last only seconds, but I have not seen myself have one, so they could be longer.

I was talking to Angela about trying to find a safe way to get to work, assuming they don't let up on their own this weekend. She wondered what might be the cause of them, since I am on my medication. I suggested stress, since there seems to be no other potential answer, and I can't bear to entertain the thought that roller derby could be involved (in fact, I think that epilepsy patients are encouraged to be involved in physical activity...)

In any case, stress is a big part of my life. Despite being out of school and largely done with my graduate program, I have not, in fact, graduated. At some point, I will have a thesis to complete--that is not off the shelf. Of course, that is taking a back burner to my current projects.

I work from 8-5 every weekday. My job is not wholly demanding, but it does keep me occupied. I constantly take calls and field them to roughly 25 offices and three businesses in the building. I am the face of the company. I file incoming service calls. I log service calls that have been completed, and reported numbers for each machine. I am supposed to know where every member of the business is at all times to be able to reach them fastest. A mistake that I make could affect the paycheck of another.

While I work, I attempt to RP. This keeps me up on writing skills and socialization. It is also fun, but sometimes topics and even my characters can become overwhelming. While the experience itself is worthwhile, on top of everything else I do, it can be a bit much.

I try to keep roller derby out of the work day, but as the Web Coordinator, sometimes it just makes sense to update Facebook or Twitter during my free moments at work. All work on the forum or website, however, must be done at home because of my limited work resources. All of my practice hours are logged after 5pm, in a rush to change clothes and get to where I'm going--whether that be in Cape (the A.C. Brase Arena) or Marion/Carbondale. 

Nights off? Spent working on derby, discussing derby, meeting about derby, or occasionally, sitting at home, watching television, and talking about roller derby. Understandable, considering derby is the one connection through which I know my new friends, and there is a LOT to talk about, especially in this season when we are planning, planning, planning for two upcoming bouts and really getting off the ground, but constantly cycling through the same things and hacking apart the same issues can't be good for stress.

Weekends are usually derby-soaked as well. Last weekend, I found myself volunteering for two separate babysitting jobs simply to get away from the immersion culture for awhile. And, yes, while those jobs came with their own set of stresses, it was nice to get a bit of head clearing. I spent more time with them than I had to.

Thursday Itself:
Stress-- Back to work after being sick, messed up service tickets, Lura discussion at bar, hair
Remedy-- took it easy at work, hair therapy, alcohol
Food-- Culver's Butterburger w/cheese, fries, rootbeer float, mixed drink, 6 wings, fries
Sleep-- 1am-7:30am
aphrodite_mine: barrettes in reddish hair read 'feminist killjoy' (thesis - wildivymildmara)
What's that, universe? You've been longing for an update from my little corner of the world? Well, I'm about to make your dreams come true, baby. Get ready for this.

One word, my loves: Derby. Roller derby, to be specific. If I wasn't utterly consumed before, I sure as hell am now. Pencil me in for three practices a week, watching my diet, attempting to exercise and stretch while sitting at my desk job... you name it. Our first bout is September 11, and I do not want to be flattened out there. We have less than six weeks with fewer than optimal numbers to get into bouting shape. I. Want. It. Last night's practice was brutal: at least three girls threw up, two cried. But we didn't stop. Roller derby is the best thing to happen to me, and despite all the drama and hooey that comes along with running a group of 30 women, the rewards are incredible.

I'm also reading more than I've had time to in ages. That's one of the benefits of being out of school and having an hour-long lunch break. I prefer to review series as a whole, which puts a bit of a hindrance on posting, but lately I've been speeding through the Scott Pilgrim graphic novels, the Oresteia (for Classica chat), the Sookie Stackhouse novels (forget what I said before about hating them, I'm so addicted), and I'm about to start the Millennium series by Steig Larsson.

As for writing, and other more intellectual pursuits, not much is happening other than RP. But that doesn't mean I'm not completely happy with the way things are right now. If you've talked to me lately, my main shows are True Blood and Degrassi, both of which I've had the pleasure of watching with friends. Simply watching, however, is not always enough. I've recently hooked up with people in the role playing community who have allowed for a deeper, meta experience. Through RP, we have explored motivations, how far characters will go, and the extent of things written into the text such as genderfail and manpain. Writing Bill has made True Blood watchable for me again, since I analyze the show and break it up instead of swallowing it whole. (RP also makes my work day a blast!)

Oh, and did I mention, I'm living with my best friend and derby wife, Bobbie Soxxx in the cutest house ever, for one. AND today I'm picking up one of my teammate's kids for the evening cause she pulled her back--I've missed babysitting so much!
aphrodite_mine: barrettes in reddish hair read 'feminist killjoy' (cgrg - skates)
In honor of the video for Alejandro being released today, I decided to watch every Gaga video out there, most for the first time.

As a result, I have some figures.

Best make out with a chick: Love Game vs. Telephone. Love Game has the downfall of being a song both 1) about a game and 2) being a video filled with dudes and crotch/dick grabbing, but the two moments of girlkissing are unexpected and pretty darn hot. Telephone, while sapphicly charged, didn't entirely deliver on the girlsmooching front. Gaga just didn't seem into it. Perhaps she was busy thinking about her Honey Bee.

Best Gaga Breast: Telephone (Jail) vs. Alejandro (Guns) vs. Alejandro (Bikini). This is a difficult choice. Obviously, I favor later-Gaga. As much as Sparkly!Jail Gaga makes me want to be shoved up against some bars, and Gun!Bikini Gaga makes me want to be a target, I think I'm going to have to go with Nude!Bikini Gaga, for the sheer (pun!) breath-snatching (another pun!) factor.

Lowest budget, obviously: Poker Face. This was almost painful to watch. She looks incredibly young, and obviously the director didn't quite know what to do with her.

Best Death: Paparazzi (Skarsgard) vs. Paparazzi (Gaga) vs. Telephone (Tyrese) vs. Bad Romance (Skeletor). I think the verdict goes to Tyrese. Choking on breakfast food is pretty awesome, plus Beyonce then delivers that line about her honey. Nommm.

Best use of chandeliers and polar bears, obviously: Bad Romance. I don't even know.

Best use of Italian stereotypes: Eh, Eh. I didn't even know this was released as a single, let alone made a video. I couldn't bear to sit through the whole thing. Good luck if you try.

Random favorite moment from Beautiful, Dirty Rich: Gaga's hand pressed against a girl's throat. Um, wow.

Waste of a seizure: Video Phone. The set up with guys' heads as cameras was almost going to be a statement, but I guess I expected too much. Fail.

Best Gaga Outfit: First of all, this is an impossible category. I'm going to limit it to the videos, because otherwise there is a limitless material to draw from, and material that I simply haven't observed. Judgement is based on WHOLE look, including shoes, hair, makeup, any accessories... and of course the clothes.

... Okay, I'm a minimalist, and I can't decide, so. I'm just going to say the nude bikini with black stockings from Alejandro. It's understated, and I love her hair with that look. That, or the gun boobs.
aphrodite_mine: barrettes in reddish hair read 'feminist killjoy' (skins - effy likes drugs)
To free myself of Skins-depression, I've decided to write prompts for it.

1. No canon pairings [i.e. they have had sex or identified to each other a romantic interest]
2. One request per person, however once your request is filled you may request another
3. Identify pairing, a color, and a time of day [i.e. Naomi/Emily, Red, Noon]
4. No repeat pairings
5. Het, femslash, boyslash are all okay
6. Characters from all series are okay, as are high-school/college aged crossovers (that I'm familiar with)
7. No RPF

- You may really like Emily or Cassie or Sketch, but I don't. Should your request include one or more of these characters, it will likely be pushed to the bottom of the pile, rushed together, or skipped completely, depending on my mood. There are, of course, exceptions to this, but request at your peril. ;)
- Fellow writers? Feel free to borrow these prompts, write your own interpretations, and link to your stories from this post.

[and yes, I'm still working on those alphabet prompts as well]


Aug. 9th, 2009 02:24 am
aphrodite_mine: barrettes in reddish hair read 'feminist killjoy' (Default)
I've finished the curses through my teeth. It rang in around 4700 words total, which is pretty awesome for me. Katie/Effy/Naomi, mentions of Emily/OC and Freddie. Lemme know what you think, alright?
aphrodite_mine: barrettes in reddish hair read 'feminist killjoy' (skins - effy likes drugs)
Title: the curses through my teeth
Author: [livejournal.com profile] aphrodite_mine
Info: Katie/Effy/Naomi, series of extended drabbles based on St. Vincent's "Actor."
Word Count: Total ~4700
Note: Bear with me here. This is something new. And... the storyline's not entirely linear. I blame this on me being a pretentious asshole.
For [livejournal.com profile] curt_tone. You're everyone, to me.

1. The Stranger (Naomi)
2. Save Me from What I Want (Effy)
3. The Neighbors (Katie)
4. Actor Out of Work (Naomi)
5. Black Rainbow (Effy)
6. Laughing With a Mouth Full of Blood (Katie)
7. Marrow (Naomi)
8. The Bed (Effy)
9. The Party (Katie)
10. Just the Same But Brand New (Naomi)
11. The Sequel (Effy) [this section only NC-17]
Bonus Track. Bicycle (Katie)

RP with me?

May. 3rd, 2009 10:27 pm
aphrodite_mine: barrettes in reddish hair read 'feminist killjoy' (art - corset)
Current RP character list.

Babysitter's Club: Modern AU
Vanessa Pike: [livejournal.com profile] pike_writer: [livejournal.com profile] bradford_court

CSI: Las Vegas
Sara Sidle: [livejournal.com profile] sidle247

Degrassi: the Next Generation
Fiona Coyne: [livejournal.com profile] likesbadboys
Mia Jones: [livejournal.com profile] sportehmom*
Paige Michaelchuk: [livejournal.com profile] themaddestpimp

The L Word
Jenny Schechter: [livejournal.com profile] iamamanatee

The Office
Karen Fillippeli: [livejournal.com profile] karen_jimslayer
Toby Flenderson: [livejournal.com profile] cstarca_wasnice

Parks & Recreation
Ann Perkins: [livejournal.com profile] perkins_rn
Leslie Knope, age 6: [livejournal.com profile] silent_k_nope

Party Down
Casey Klein: [livejournal.com profile] free_pancakes: twitter

Octavia of the Julii: [livejournal.com profile] eighthoctavia*

The Runaways/RPF
Cherie Currie: [livejournal.com profile] imyourwildgirl
Dakota Fanning: [livejournal.com profile] oscardamnit

Naomi Campbell: [livejournal.com profile] imoan_naomi
Tony Stonem: [livejournal.com profile] tstonem*

Sonny With a Chance
Sonny Munroe: [livejournal.com profile] wiscawesome: twitter

Sookie Stackhouse Novels
Bill Compton: [livejournal.com profile] mayicallonyou

True Blood
Amy Burley: [livejournal.com profile] evrythingcnntd*
Bill Compton: [livejournal.com profile] tenuoushumanity: [livejournal.com profile] areafive
Debbie Pelt: [livejournal.com profile] peltedhowl: [livejournal.com profile] areafive

Whip It
Maggie Mayhem: [livejournal.com profile] mayhem_mayhem
*indicates inactivity

aphrodite_mine: barrettes in reddish hair read 'feminist killjoy' (ap - sometimes she flies)
Stolen from [livejournal.com profile] sinandmisery, and tweaked.

1. Pick a letter.
2. Pick a theme starting with said letter.
3. Pick a fandom or crossover and a character and pairing.
(Example: F is for Fashion, Emily/Serena [Devil Wears Prada])
4. Receive drabble/ficlet.

- RPF and Original fandom are seperate entities.
- Each letter may only be chosen once.

A: is for Anything: Emily/Effy (Skins/Transatlanticism) for [livejournal.com profile] siviusx
B: is for Bananas: Katie/JJ (Skins) for [livejournal.com profile] snowwhit2189
C: is for Clients: Michael/Pam (The Office)for [livejournal.com profile] midnightxgarden
D: is for Drugs: Effy/Tony (Skins) for [livejournal.com profile] curt_tone
E: is for Ecstasy: Kaya/Nick (Skins RPF) for [livejournal.com profile] xthe_ingenue
H: is for Hypnotize: Emma/Jean (X-Men) for [livejournal.com profile] velvet_talon
I: is for Impulse: Bliss/Bloody Holly (Whip It) for [livejournal.com profile] poisonarrows
J: is for Jam: Orenda Fink/Jenny Lewis (Indie Music RPF) for [livejournal.com profile] nalakaori_chan
K: is for Kaleidoscope: Lily/Kat (Skins RPF) for [livejournal.com profile] jengrrrl
L: is for Love: Lauren Reed/Sark (Alias) for [livejournal.com profile] distractedone
M: is for Mexico: Jenna/Rashida (The Office RPF) for [livejournal.com profile] nalakaori_chan
N: is for Never: Nicki/Sarah (Big Love) for [livejournal.com profile] prozacpark
O: is for Obvious: Karen/Pam/Jim (The Office) for [livejournal.com profile] piperrhiannon
P: is for Paparazzi: Demi/Selena (Disney RPF) for [livejournal.com profile] likecharity
Q: is for Quickly: Emma Watson 2001/Emma Watson 2009 (Harry Potter RPF) for [livejournal.com profile] aphrodite_mine // is for Quit: Mia/Ellie (Degrassi) for [livejournal.com profile] fishy73
R: is for Rain: Emily/Naomi (Skins) for [livejournal.com profile] twistomatic
S: is for Sneaking Out: Darcy/Jane (Degrassi) for [livejournal.com profile] velvet_talon
T: is for Tits: Cuddy for [livejournal.com profile] thegraduate09
U: is for "Unrequited": Darcy/Jane (Degrassi) for [livejournal.com profile] lunderpope
V: is for Vixen: Libby/Daisy (Carnivale/Dead Like Me) for [livejournal.com profile] prozacpark
W: is for "Wrong": Erica/Dr. Tom (Being Erica) for [livejournal.com profile] poisonarrows
Y: is for Yearn: Naomi/Emily (Skins) for meeee.
Z: is for Zoo: Naomi/Katie (Skins/Trans) for [livejournal.com profile] curt_tone
aphrodite_mine: barrettes in reddish hair read 'feminist killjoy' (art - corset)
STOP MAKING ME GAY (and by stop I mean PLEASE MORE).
(totally in alphabetical order)
(totally hotlinking)

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